I accepted your apology, Dean, and your prolonged hug in Purgatory.
( We're okay, he keeps back.
Dean's anger worries him the most of everything, but it feels like he's either gotten a handle on it or pushed it way down. And maybe he's a big part of that.
[Dean cracks a joke and a grin to break some of the heaviness of the conversation. He's starting to get better at recognizing the signs for when he's about to become overwhelmed, and that is entirely on Cas and his good influence on Dean. Ever since Cas declared his love and sacrificed himself for Dean, Dean's tried to take his words to heart. He doesn't always succeed, and it's a struggle he'll likely carry with him his whole life (and afterlife, at this rate).
His own anger terrifies him. He likes to think he has a better handle on it now, and, internally, he's making notes to research meditation and calming techniques when he's next in the library. One technique he's discovered that's proven helpful to him is reading tarot cards, strangely enough. Very strangely, considering he's Dean Winchester. But taking out the cards, reading them, and arranging them is soothing for him in ways he can't quite explain; he's kept himself from going over the ledge and into a panic attack with them, so he's going to keep that particular hobby close to his chest.
He grins at Cas when he says he wouldn't have it any other way.]
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( We're okay, he keeps back.
Dean's anger worries him the most of everything, but it feels like he's either gotten a handle on it or pushed it way down. And maybe he's a big part of that.
The dog. The house. Maybe not in Hell... )
I wouldn't have it any other way.
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[Dean cracks a joke and a grin to break some of the heaviness of the conversation. He's starting to get better at recognizing the signs for when he's about to become overwhelmed, and that is entirely on Cas and his good influence on Dean. Ever since Cas declared his love and sacrificed himself for Dean, Dean's tried to take his words to heart. He doesn't always succeed, and it's a struggle he'll likely carry with him his whole life (and afterlife, at this rate).
His own anger terrifies him. He likes to think he has a better handle on it now, and, internally, he's making notes to research meditation and calming techniques when he's next in the library. One technique he's discovered that's proven helpful to him is reading tarot cards, strangely enough. Very strangely, considering he's Dean Winchester. But taking out the cards, reading them, and arranging them is soothing for him in ways he can't quite explain; he's kept himself from going over the ledge and into a panic attack with them, so he's going to keep that particular hobby close to his chest.
He grins at Cas when he says he wouldn't have it any other way.]
Me either.
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( It's so sappy. But, it's so true. )
Come on. Let's take Miracle back. Start the day.
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[It's definitely sappy as hell but, if anything, Hell has taught him to better appreciate the soft, quiet moments, especially with Cas.]
Sounds like a plan to me. I think I still have some coffee from before Barbas' cronies started hording everything, if you feel up for some?